This Is Only A Test

As I am sitting on the couch tonight with a sore throat and a slight fever I have a few thoughts that I would like to share.  As we all know I am still relatively new (5 months) to this lifestyle of fitness and healthy eating.  I decided that I would forego the run I had planned to do tonight to rest and make sure that I stay healthy.  This seems like it should be an easy decision to make right?  However, due to my past, this was increasingly difficult for me to do as it came time to go.  I seem to have traded one addiction-cigarettes, for another-running.  I also have the anxiety and dread that I will fall back into old habits and just not go tomorrow when I am feeling better.  I know that this is irrational fear in my head, however it is still a difficult thing for me.  I do NOT like to fail.

That being said, before this lifestyle change I experienced sore throats, ear infections, sinus infections, and bouts of stomach bugs on almost a monthly basis.  That is what I have playing over and over again in my head as motivation to keep moving forward and not slip back.  I have pretty much gone months now without any serious infections.

A quote I want to share, that I first read in the book The Secret...

"A man is but the product of his thoughts.  What he thinks, he becomes."--Mahatma Gandhi

This has made me think of the negative thoughts that I have put in my head for years.  I have worked hard to adjust how I think and give myself positive affirmations.  I am not 100% and today is definitely a test on my positive thoughts.  But it is only a test and and I intend to pass it.